*wipes tears* I am lying here totally blown away by the love of God and his attention to detail. In the last couple of days God has shown me that he knows the littlest things about me and that he is actively involved in my life. here’s the story;
Saturday, JUNE 23.
I didn’t have such a good week but I was about to have lunch with my friend so I was pretty pumped. Lunch went well and I ended up talking about what has been on my mind and all. She gave good advice as usual. Then it was time to open our fortune cookies ( I love fortune cookies). I opened mine and it said “rely on long-time friends to give you some great advice”. Co-incidence? Nope, God-incidence. God found a way to talk to me and give me the direction I needed.
Sunday, JUNE 24.
One of the low self-esteem days. I woke up not feeling too good about myself and life. i was disappointed in myself because I did something I wasn’t very proud of. I got to church in time for worship, I wasn’t really in the mood to worship, but I sang along anyway. The last song was “you’re beautiful, beautiful”, it was just saying how beautiful God is.
Midway into the second round of the song, the worship leader said (these are not his exact words but) “there’s someone here, who is disappointed in himself/herself for a mistake they made, you feel God is upset with you and you don’t deserve his love, God wants you to know that he loves you and you are beautiful.” He continued, “I want everyone to sit down, and listen to this song and imagine God singing it to you. God wants me to sing this to you”. And he sang “you’re beautiful, beautiful” over and over again, till I could feel the love of God. I told myself, “never forget this moment, when the days get tough remember this.” And I soaked it all in.
( ps: I don’t remember the name of the song, and the only parts I remember are “you’re beautiful, beautiful”)
Tuesday, JUNE 27.
I pray every day but on this day, I just didn’t feel like it. I didn’t feel God wanted to hear from me either, so I just did other things. Later in the day, I just went to my email and I felt led to read my devotional for the day (I use Girlfriends in God), and the bible passage for the day was Songs of Solomon 2:14
I was absolutely blown away and I was blushing like crazy. OMG, the maker of the heavens and the earth thinks my voice is sweet and my face is lovely. What more could a girl ask for? :’). It totally warmed my heart and I said, “Good one God.” I couldn’t stop smiling. I had a really Good conversation with God that day. I felt really loved.
Tuesday, JULY 3.
You know how you ask God for something and he doesn’t give it to you? It has happened to me a lot but I trust his decisions so I accept it. There was something I really wanted today and I didn’t want to ask God because I didn’t want to ask Him and then he won’t do it. I didn’t want to be disappointed. Anyways, the awesome thing is he did it for me. I didn’t even need to ask him. He read my mind and he made it happen. I am so happy right now, you have no idea.
I was about to write this post about how awesome God is and the song “your love never fails by Chris Quilala and Jesus culture” popped up on my YouTube feed and I gave it a listen.
Do you feel God knows nothing about your life? Do you feel he doesn’t care or he doesn’t know where you’re at? Are you lonely and afraid? You don’t have to be. Jesus loves you too much, way too much and he wants to hear from you. He knows all the little details of your life. (read psalm 139) . You haven’t prayed in a while? That’s okay, you can pray now. I just want you to feel the very amazing love of God. It’s the best thing ever. it is real and tangible. It is just amazing knowing that someone is always looking out for me. Nothing can separate you or me from the love of God. Nothing!
God bless !!!