My Acceptance Peace

I am at peace because I have finally accepted the imperfections in my blood.
And No! I am not just saying this. I have taken the time to consider the magnitude of this utterance.
I accept that my mother, my father and the bible have taught me the difference between right and wrong,
And I will honour their labour of love by striving to be in the right but sometimes I will choose wrong.
I accept that the fact that I love Jesus does not strip me of the stains in my heart or the darkness I will be fighting all of my days.
I accept that I am afraid of the future but oh! so excited for it; yet I must only live one day at a time.
I realize that even the people I love will hurt me and I will hurt the people who have decided to set up camp in my heart.
Hence, my life will always be a never ending cycle of love, hurt, forgiveness and love again,
I understand that I will not always be happy. I will not always “be in happy”,
Because happiness is not an exotic island, happiness is not a destination. I cannot travel there.
Some days life will bring me to my knees then push me to the ground but I will still breathe in hope like sweet oxygen,
I accept that some days will be harder than some others; I will even forget what patience means,
I will not always be sweet-kind-go-lucky, some days I will spell indifferent.
I have accepted that I am a human being.

I am three hundred and sixty five days of different emotions,
I am January 15, March 19, September 12, November 30, December 9 …. I am every single day
And I need to allow myself to be human.
I accept the responsibility to let myself grieve a lost love, to hurt from an unkind word, to cry when I am disappointed, to be angry when something is terribly unacceptable,
I accept that I do not always have to be in control and that some days my dreams will seem incredibly out of reach,
I understand the need to let it be. To let it be. To let everything and everyone be.
I accept that every day I will fight to be better, braver, stronger, and kinder
and soon I will evolve into the woman the stars have been shinning for.

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21 thoughts on “My Acceptance Peace

  1. So Real and So true! Loved every line. Simple and relatable! I think everyone should think these thought. It would make the days ahead easier to take on.

  2. ❤️❤️ this is so beautiful. It’s okay to be human. To cry and laugh and be angry when we need to be. Love! xx

  3. Print it, frame it and hang this in your house. Like the person above said, it is a creed. Wish the world could see this…
    Beautifully written and so sincere, Estti!

  4. So real. So honest. I’m sure you’ve heard this a million times but you’re a really good writer. Keep shining. x

  5. I’ve been liking pretty much enough posts on this blog to get me flagged a stalker. But this, I love. You took my unwritten piece and put it down in a way better, I think than I personally could have.
    May I reblog?

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