At first you feel everything
and then nothing.
Then the most terrible sadness
laced with delicate love.
Then a sliver of hope-
maybe it isn’t as bad as it seems
maybe there’s a chord that fits
enough to make it sound like a song.
more happiness than sadness
then sadness, far from benign
burning through your sleeves
burning down the truth you
desperately want to be true
And then you just want to forget
even the best memories
even the dearest, most beautiful moments
(of your life so far), you want to forget because
for you, they are creating an even
greater grief- having felt.
but you cannot forget
and that in itself is a tragedy.